I havent blogged in a while, for good reason! I’ve been severely distracted by my new boyfriend Philip! I’ve known him for 9 years and even though that’s a long time, we’d never met. We’d talk on MSN, webcam, Bebo before it went rubbish, Facebook, texts and phone calls. We spoke pretty much constantly throughout the 9 years, a few times we’d fall out, mostly his fault, but we’d always be friends again.
We became a lot closer this last year, every time Ben would shout at me or make me feel down, i’d confide in Phil and he’d cheer me up, the day Ben went to hit me, I phoned Phil for advice. I didn’t think we’d ever really meet up, we’re nothing alike and I thought he’d annoy the hell out of me, but after talking to his Dad on the phone, it became clear that we were actually going to meet.
On the 3rd of September he travelled 11ish hours to my house, part by car with his brother, then a train for the rest of the journey, followed by a taxi. I was out drinking with Ceirwen and Matt when I got the text saying he was at the train station, we’d left the bar and popped into McDonald’s to get Ceirwen a fanta, so I left them there and walked to the station. It was half 11 at night and there was a fight outside a pub, I quickly shuffled along avoiding everyone. I seemed to be waiting forever outside the station, some randomers said “hi” to me, I waved and then I turned and to my left, Philip was standing there. We both didn’t know what to say “hi i’m Leanna” seemed appropriate, it wasnt exciting… it seemed like I was just meeting a friend I saw daily, it just felt normal. He was only meant to stay 4 days, it’s been 11.
He seems to have fit perfectly into my life, my family love him and he tries really hard with Alfie and Alfie genuinely loves him being here, he seems to listen to Phil more than me. He even helps me with Alfie’s every day needs, dressing him, changing his nappy, cooking and he gets up in the night with him too. He’s so playful aswell, we spent an hour in a toy shop while he picked what toys he wanted…he settled with a bouncy ball, a cow that flips, growing fish in a tank, a fish key ring and a weird hand face thing, I insisted that he was wasting his money, but it made me giggle.
He’s taken me out for dates, we’ve been out every day since he’s been here, we’ve bought each other gifts and we just seem to connect. He’s such a weirdo in every way possible that I don’t think we’ll ever get bored with each other.
He was looking at me yesterday, I turned and said “what?” he replied “Are we soul mates?” So I said “what?” his eyes filled up and he replied “I think you could be my soul mate” it was so cheesy and normally i’d burst out laughing, but I think he really meant it. He’s so different from the person I talked to online, he was cocky, arrogant vain and damn right annoying! Although he is still annoying, he’s also very sensitive, emotional and he has such a big heart. He even offered to come to Alfie’s hospital appointment with me, because Ben didn’t want to go and he knew I’d be upset going alone.
I just wish he didn’t have to go home.